Learning From Love

Lately,there's nothing can make me feel good about life...it's getting more pathetic to me and i don't even know what's coming across my mind actually. I have been facing so much obstacles in life and yet the thing seems not going to fade away shortly and i am totally not in any good mood now...

I also discover that ever since i came here,life became so dull and incomplete though i have tried my very best to deny all those feelings and try to lead my life as nothing happens..i still sing as usual,make jokes to others and laughs on other's jokes,but deep inside my heart...only GOD knows how lonely i am...not to say my friends are not good at all, they are doing just fine,but sometimes, things are just unexplainable and getting more complicated as time passes by...

By the way, while browsing my song lists on my computer, i accidentally found a very touching song live performed by KRIS DAYANTI...it's called LEARNING FROM LOVE...it was taken from her live concert album and the music background was conducted by the INDONESIAN music maestro,MR ERWIN GUTAWA...i just love the musical composition and arrangement as much as i adore Kris's sultry voice...the song gives a very deep meaning to her as it has changed her life from a poor girl of a small village into one of the greatest singer ASIA's ever had when singing this song on the 1992 grand finale ASIA BAGUS championship in Tokyo Japan...she became the 1st Asia Bagus champion winner and since then,her glorious career has begun and she's still there in her own class until now...speaking of the song itself....it really touches my heart strings and i won't say much on the lyric instead i will just post it here and hayatilah keindahan lirik lagu ini ok...

Left all alone
No one to turn to
Wish you were here holding me near
But things have changed
There's nothing left now
But memories that stay here in my heart

Those precious times
We shared when we cared
Means so much to me
Though it's all in the past

From the pain
I learned more of life
That love is alive
And will be part of me
All my life

When will the pain ever be over
When will new hope rise from within
Giving me strength to start all over
And make me feel that life's worth living for

Those precious times
We shared when we cared
Means so much to me
Though it's all in the past

From the pain
I learned more of life
That love is alive
And will be part of me
All my life

I'll never let myself
Be pulled down by this loneliness
I'll use the strength of love
To help me get through

by the way i have uploaded the song into this blog...so, if you have time, just feel free to have a listen to this very beautiful melody...

how strong the power of music to my life...it can even speak up what's inside my mind and what i am currently think about....and i believe that is why i do not have the ability to express myself very well directly to others (love,hate,gratitude etc..) and that is why only when i sing i can really become myself and throw away whatever feeling that i am undergoing at the moment..
(Maria and Sab should have understood me yesterday kan???how crazy i was when karaokeing with them!!)